finally happy for the first time in ages!

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i’m not sure whether you make decisions with out any thought of me? or whether you don’t care! Sometimes youre so considerate yet sometimes completely inconsiderate and thoughtless!   i feel so shit!   like you dont even care if you have me or not?!

so you go away for a week, and the only actual day you could of made time for me before is the thursday before you go?! yet even then you book driving and shit! so there never was any decent time i could of spent with you before you went :’(

literally never cried so much in my life. how could you do that?! 

2 days left.

You don’t understand. You say you do but you don’t because you just think say I’m pushing you away.
You don’t understand!
You were deceitful and all your mistakes are erasable. It seems like you tried hiding it and you can’t get away from that. You say you thought I knew but then a few days before I found out and I asked you didn’t say anything.You put that before our first summer together whereas I didn’t because I thought it was more important!
You know I would want you on the 7th but going an getting a tan and getting wasted is more important.
You say you won’t do anything but I know you will. You need to stop being so naïve.
You’ve hurt me so bad and you won’t even be around to make me better. Yet I’m still expected to welcome you back when you have time for me again? I just can’t do that.
You’ll be so angry at me for writing this but it’s how I feel and there is nothing you can do to make it better.
You always said you’d look after me but in reality you’re the one who hurt me the most. Yet even though I can’t say it, I still love you so fucking much with my pathetic little broken heart.